Miscarriage and the Light

"14,I'm still grieving but I take each day as it comes,my 5 year old daughter keeps me so occupied and I mso gratefulto have her,I think she kinda keeps me for being stuck in my dark hole nd feeling self pity for myself,my partner is also quite distant lately but I do understand we're grieving differently,the important part is that we communicate and share our feelings,good or bad,and I must say the whole thing was traumatic and I really am not in a rush to have any babies or even try again,anytime soon,for now I want to focus on myself,getting better and being that happy,bubbly person who loves enjoyinglife and trying new things and being happy,andi know this will sound weird,but ppl somehow expect to see me crying and depressed,and I'm not,I do have my moments of cryingwhen I think abt what happened,but that mostly happens when I'm at home i know thistoo shall pass,I love my two boys and they will always be close to my heart,I also know that they are now in heaven and they are our little Angels."

" I found out I was pregnant very early I was in pain and discomfort I was referred to and ob doctor every thing looked good than when my hormone levels weren't matching up to the measurements on the sonogram there were concerns that's when I wanted to get a second opinion bc the first doctor said I could either wait to see if I miscarry on my own or have surgery so I wanted a second option the week before I saw the dr another dr for my second opinion I went to the hospital bc I was in pain They didn't see anything wrong they said I was four weeks along they put me on bedrest when it came time for my second opinion drs appointment I went it they did a sonogram and the measurements were the same as it was the week before when I had went to the hospital so I was given the option of surgery or I could take a pill to help my body miscarry bc it wasn't doing it on it's own they said."

" I know the embryo was dead ( i was 8 weeks along when it happened) but it felt like killing it That i let him/her down The worst is, im alone with this, as the father of my baby did not want it, and im feeling i have lost him and then my baby So all the comforting words from nurses and doctors you can try in a few months again feel like just a knife in my wound I dont know how you can deal with this alone"


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" I started spotting went to bed I had done this with 2 and with 3 went to my doctor he said cervix closed go back to bed it didn't stop I told my husband the morning before the miscarriage we have a girl name but no boy name just in case he got in the shower I got out the name book Patrick jumped off the page I told him and he agreed it was a good name the next day I went to the bathroom and the baby slipped out I too wrapped it in tissue cradled it in a tupperware container took it to my doctor he looked said nothing and examined me when he stood up he said cervix open it is over with tears in his eyes I had ultra sound everything was gone no'd c wait 3 months be before you try again it was Mar."

"13,1990 I waited and cried and longed for a baby to hold I knew God was in control and my baby Patrick was in heaven with Jesus on June 13th we tried and I know I got pregnant my body just churned all night on March 27,1991 my baby girl was born got had answered my prayer and brought forth his promise I was so elated raising 4 children has been my joy in life I have two wonderful grandsons and now my baby girl is having a baby girl July 2 this year life does go on after miscarriage and I wait with anticipation to meet my little grown up I guess, Patrick in heaven."

" ANGEL S GRIN Our eyes never knew you But our hearts always did Touched us immensely Then you went and hid You had your reasons We had our love Your brief stint Was a gift from above We will always hold you Deep within our hearts The little love that swifted Off in golden parts We are watching you go On this day today But you will be loved by us In every human way Our ode, our tribute, Our song unheard Will be shared by us With no spoken word Thank you for allowing us To love deeply once again Until we see you on the other plane Keep up your angel's grin Becky, you have a wonderful gift of expressing God's love and your experiences."

http://www.scissortailsilk.com/2013/09/01/hope-after-miscarriage/



" Lynne lee says October 9, 2013 at 7:08 pm Keaton by Lynne Lee You started out as a tiny miracle Made from the deepest love I've ever known Every minute you were with me Growing and kicking inside your private home At night I would wonder who you'd look like And map out all of our plans I would go over every single detail From a baby boy to a great big man Don't eat this, don't drink that I watched everything I did You were going to be perfect and healthy Just the greatest little kid Who could ask for anything more My life was all complete A loving husband, a warm home, and a baby My heart could not miss a beat Then things got so confusing Things got way out of hand They told me there was no heart beat And I just could not understand Seven months of love you gave me The most precious days of your life I will never ever forget you Even though you are out of my sight I do nothing but wander around Searching for a clue Trying to figure out what happened And wondering what I should do I ask the Heavens above to forgive me Oh please Lord, what have I done It's so hard for me to face the day Because you were still my son I Love and Miss You, Mommy Daphne says October 9, 2013 at 11:41 pm Thank you for this post."

" And asking how i was doing was always the worst question because I always felt obligated to say I'm doing ok or I'm hanging in there or something somewhat positive so the person asking wouldn't feel bad, but all I really wanted to do was be honest and say that I was still feeling awful, depressed, confused, and alone that even though I still loved the Lord, and had faith, that I was struggling with knowing I would never understand but people don't want to hear that so, if you don't want to hear that, and you don't want to force the person to lie for your benefit, I think it's better not to ask."

http://thehumbledhomemaker.com/2013/10/baby-born-into-heaven-via-miscarriage-or-stillbirth.html



" Xoxo to all princess says July 16, 2014 at 6:37 am Hi am princess, me and my husband have being trying for a baby for about 2years now and I finally felt pregnant, we thanked god, I went for the first scan last week but they could not see a baby at 12weeks, all they could see is an empty sac, I was going through scriptures to read online when I saw your link, I beg you put me in your prayers as am going for another scan tomorrow, since last week I have been having spotting on and off, and only see when I wipe after passing urine."

" Many thanks, Wame, Botswana, Africa Shequenda says April 8, 2015 at 1:26 pm Hi im Shequenda i just found out i was pregnant i just need prayer asking god to let me carry my baby the full term let my baby be healthy and that i have a successful pregnancy with no complications and i want to thank Jesus for preparing my womb to carry it precious gift he has sent me Beth says April 9, 2015 at 12:29 pm I am 5 weeks pregnant and lost the last pregnancy about this time."

" MJ Hernandez says July 10, 2014 at 1:40 pm Hello I have stumbled across your site looking for hope and closure my wife has had 3 miscarriages and is currently pregnant again but with low HCG levels we are both praying and hoping for something new not like the past something not from us but by Him I thank ahead fr your 10 scriptures which I have spoke loud into existence I ask for a prayer from anyone if possible and I ask The Lord to Bless You All!"

http://www.graceformoms.com/10-scriptures-for-fighting-fear-in-pregnancy/




" Dear Chad and Erin, I encourage you that God said in his word he will not give you more than you can handle - 1 Corinthians 10:13 (AMP) and when we think about the story Job and all He went through we know it was a test of his faith and likewise what you two are experiencing."

" One day we will see our little ones in Heaven and until then we rejoice to know they are safe in the arms of Jesus!"

" I thought your post was so very good that even though we don't understand things fully here on earth sometimes, God is still in control and He cares for us when we hurt, praying for both of you during this time of loss."

http://chadsperspective.blogspot.com/2014/03/our-little-angel.html

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